A Poem for Those on a Healing Journey

"You are not a drop in the ocean, but the entire ocean in a drop" -Rumi
It is not always easy to be something so vast and mysterious masquerading as a person. So feel all the big feelings, stay wildly devoted to the things that bring you joy, and don't forget that this moment, and all those to come, and here for the sake of play.

Dancer-Teresa Cisneros
Poet- Emily Capshaw
Cinematography- Emily Capshaw + Stephano Jonas
Edit- Emily Capshaw
Color-Stephano Jonas
Music- Reminiscence by Chelsea McGough, remix by Stephano Jonas
Shot at The Mother Tree LA

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This
will not be how it was
Because I
am no longer who I was
I have become the savior I once longed for.
A sweet drop to satisfy a parched tongue so it might begin to sing its song
I have risen to protect the little girl within me
I trust this moment
I will take my own hand,
I will surrender the journey and what it brings
I will choose to keep my heart open in a world that constantly pushes it to close
Falling deeply and madly in love with the uniqueness of every moment,
Knowing it will pass, I will feel it all anyway.
I will find a way to love reality more than fantasy,
For I have already lost too many moments into the trance of otherness,
And I have run out of flowers for their graves.
I will trust my body
I will hear the cries of each cell that bursts with a story to tell 
Knowing my flesh as the most beautifully intricate and complex mechanism imaginable
I will melt my mind into oneness with her being.
And when I feel truth cooking up a beat inside me 
I will let it burst out with a song on my lips
And the sway of my hips
I am ecstasy in motion
An expression of perfection in a moment sized form.
And in every moment I will express it all fully
When I am high I will soar and dance and shout,
I will praise the sun and soak her in
And when I am low I will become slow, I will hold myself and let her break in my hands
I will let joy awaken me 
Feeling the breath of god caressing all things
Like fingertips upon soft skin.
There is a richness hidden in silence, so I will let myself pause,
I will some commas into my story.
And in those moments between,
I will allow my pain to have a voice,
Because I have seen she is not a monster
But a child and when she says she is scared
I will sweep her up into my lap and whisper reminders that its all pretend 
And in the end the villains will take off their masks,
And the light will illuminate the shadows
And all things return back home.
But until then, child.

Its time to play.