thoughts and prayers - black dresses

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is there any truth
to what you tell me you know about me?

i don't wanna underestimate your intellect
but something tells me there is something more to this

go ahead and escape, a couple times a day,
will do you good but don't forget to bring yourself
back to what you're terrified of every single day

...yeah she's okay


i am not like you
i wanna forget myself and be lied to
i don't know if anything is right
i'm just a girl who can't look herself in the eye

i am not like you
i wanna forget myself and be lied to
i don't know if anything is right
i'm just a girl who can't look herself in the eye

and in my dreams
i am somewhere where i can fall apart
i can think nothing and only
feel what i need to

who fuckin knows whats up?
who the fuck knows whats up?
who really knows whats up?
who the fuck knows whats up?

thank god, thank god im not gay
thank god, thank god im not scared
thank god, its not fucking happening

thoughts and prayers
thoughts and prayers

thank god, thank god im not gay
thank god that i dont know anything
thank god, thank god im not scared

thoughts and prayers
thoughts and prayers

its the fucking worst isnt it?
its so fucking cursed isnt it?
its a fucking curse isnt it?

thoughts and prayers
thoughts and prayers

these bitches just wanna watch us die
they wanna pray over our dead bodies alive
they wanna

leave us alone
we dont wanna fucking hurt anyone
we just wanna feel anything
before we're done

leave us alone
we just wanna have control of our lives
we just wanna get off
feel safe and die

and in my dreams
i am somewhere where i can fall apart
i can think nothing and only
feel what i need to

"so do.."
"yeah, we're doing it."
"okay. just give me a second, uh... when's it start?"
"we're—we're doing it, right now."
"ugh okay, fine—"

everything is movement, everything is hypochondriac
and pieced together from the fragments of losing
sight of what i thought you wanted me to be
though i've tried

and it almost killed me

you cannot know this, you cannot pretend to be close with me
psychosis batters at your worldview & gnosis
whoa! it's only been a minute and a moment
and you're already done!

this is praxis. do you have anything to fight back with?
no, you lack it

am i making you worry?
is your vision getting blurry?
yeah youre gonna need glasses

i burn so fucking bright but your eyesight only sees ashes
i am long past this
post-traumatic, manic
consciousness blasted
look in my eyes and see the person you damaged

and in my dreams
i am somewhere where i can fall apart
i can think nothing and only
feel what i need to

pick yourself off the floor
and look yourself in the eye

leave us alone
we dont wanna fucking hurt anyone
we just wanna feel anything
before we're done

leave us alone
we just wanna have control of our lives
we just wanna get off
feel safe and die

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footage: catghost
i do not own this song, all music belongs to blacksquares/black dresses.