Скачать или смотреть because you see me - oc animatic (wip 1)

i feel like i keep losing motivation to do anything, so ill go to sleep early again as if my time had no worth at all...
but hey, for as much as im forced to suffer just being alive, im proud of this, which ive used that time on.
..at least as much as i could.
the experiments long over and yet i still find myself so stressed i barely have any energy left for anything
i just hope itll all be over soon... everythings always too much.

i dunno what to do or say. vokis been having to remind me of worth" itself more again lately in general. (ah, very voki-like, huh?)
i think the effort i put into this makes it worth something

...my annotations will be gone once i draw over them, but even if you miss most of them i still hope you enjoy this sneak peek into the meaning behind these things i draw.
i could spend eternity drawing.
if no people will ever stick around, same as me having to finish an animation panel one day... that aspect of "something i can always return to", like that sort of big project, will always be the art itself i like to draw that honestly keeps me alive better than most people could.
i keep thinking "i should revamp rule 4" (or even just "i should write" in general)
...but i couldnt die either, so i dont want to disallow myself. itd feel unfair..
its only ever suffering more until you dont suffer anymore

i will keep drawing because i like it
over and over, animate more just for fun. i want to be content with even the things whichs ends i anticipate out of fear

i keep thinking im saying something wrong but this is just being honest. im sorry. i dont feel too good...
i love you.

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...its like "seeking an endless animation".