Скачать или смотреть You’re Not Lazy. Academia Is Just Designed to Break You

I used to think I was lazy. That I just couldn’t keep up.
But what I’ve learned—slowly and painfully—is that it wasn’t laziness. It was ambiguity.
No clear rules. Constant comparison. Arbitrary standards set by people who don’t actually know how to do the work themselves.

And when you’re left guessing, that guessing turns into shame. You think you’re behind, broken, or not cut out for this.

But here’s the truth:
You’re not the problem.
The system is built to make you question yourself.

The real work is learning how to ignore all the noise—
To show up honestly.
To speak as yourself, not the version you think they want.
To live with kindness, openness, and courage, even when the metrics say “you’re not enough.”

If you’ve ever felt like you’re failing and don’t know why—this one’s for you.
Share it if you’ve been there too.