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"I know what you really think of me. You think I'm a monster."

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(if you don't like voice-over overuse, you should probably skip the first 50 sec. herpderp. and yes, I am aware some (voice/)clips are re-used. that was intentional.)

Full essay-kind-of-thing I wrote for Azula here: http://aviiavatar.tumblr.com/post/191...

If you know me, you probably know how in love I am with complicated characters, and therefore Azula.The point I'm trying to make in this video, is showing you how much Azula's actions, feelings, emotions are influenced by others, Ursa especially. Azula has always believed Ursa thought she was a monster. Children in particular are overly vulnerable to things like this: they go and act the way others expect them to, what's the point in proving them wrong? If think say so, it's probably true. So Azula made it true. Of course, Ozai plays a big part in it as well (which I probably haven't portrayed very well), he's always made sure Azula got what she wanted, used and developed her talent: giving Azula the (seemingly) control she wanted. Though he probably did this for all the wrong reasons, for making her a useful puppet in time of need. Obviously Ozai's side was right for her: what would you choose if you didn't know any better, people who think you're a monster, or people who think you're a prodigy?
Ursa, Mai & Ty Lee all loved Zuko more than her. She had her father, until Zuko got redeemed to him too. Her father uses HER plan, but refuses to take her with him, giving her the position of Firelord. That should be everything she could wish for, right? No. Azula has always tried for love and loyalty. She cared about her friends in her own way, but she didn't know how to handle with them since she takes example of what her father showed her. If you've never learned the true concept of other people's feelings, you're not going to understand them. Suddenly she sees betrayal everywhere. Confused with uncertainty she desperately tries to regain control again. But fails. And then Ursa appears to her in a vision. The only thing she thought still made sense - that she is, in fact, a monster - is contradicted by the statement of love by the only person she truly thought hated her. And that blow made her world cave in.
Zuko may not always have had his honor, but he had everything Azula needed.
I hope you enjoyed my Azula creys.
Song choice? Well this song rips my heart out, and so does Azula, so it's basically a match made in heaven. I chose this version because I'm working on a video with the other one, and if it'll ever get done, at least there'll be a little bit of diversity.