ANOHNI and the Johnsons - Why Am I Alive Now? (Official Video)

“Why Am I Alive Now?” by ANOHNI and the Johnsons from the upcoming album ‘My Back Was A Bridge For You To Cross’, out July 7th on Rough Trade and Secretly Canadian.
Stream: https://anohni.ffm.to/why-am-i-alive-now
Pre-order: https://anohni.ffm.to/mbwabfytc

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STARRING - Fashion, Davia Spain & Massima Bell @tightcorsetloosemorals @damispain @massima.bell

Director - Hunter Schafer (@hunterschafer)
Somesuch Co-Founders - Sally Campbell & Tim Nash (@sallyc70 + @timmynasher)
Somesuch Executive Producer - Alli Maxwell (@iamallimaxwell)
Somesuch PM - Ashley Soloman (@ashleysoloman)
Aguita Executive Producers - Veronica Leon + Yamel Thompson (@aguitainc @v_rawrr @yamelthompson)
Aguita Head of Production - Ellen Romero (@ellen.romero)
Executive Assistant - Luisa González (@luisamgonzalez_)

Producer - Autumn Maschi (@autumnmaschi)
Co-Producer & Stylist - Hex Hudosh (@hernameishex)
Production Manager - Camila Madero (@cammadero)
Production Coordinator - Alex Turner (@alxxlt)
1st AD - Lane Stroud (@lane.stroud)
2nd AD - Kyle Shifflett

Director of Photography - Flavia Martinez (@flaviamtz)
1st AC - Lucas Deans (@lucasdeans)
2nd 1st AC - Jason Knoll (@jason__knoll)
2nd AC - Rio Zumwalt (@rionoelzumwalt)
2nd 2nd AC - Joel Martin (@_joel.martin_)
Steady Op - Devon Catucci (@devon_catucci)
DIT - Adrian Jebef

Gaffer - Skott Khuu (@guccigaffer)
BBE - Amber Jones (@amberautumnxo1)
Key Grip - Sergio Silva (@whitericelife)
BBG - Dennis G Pires
Grip - Rob Shit (@rob_shit_ )

Production Assistant - Set/AD -Sage Barrier
Production Assistant - Set - Steven Carrillo
Production Assistant - Set - Sebastian Romero (@sebbromero)
Production Assistant - Set - Matt Jarmagin
Production Assistant - Set - Carlos Sanchez
Production Assistant - Truck - Anthony Jackson
Crafty - Mila Craft Service (@milacraftservice)
Medic - Tony Bautista

Choreographer - Isa Spector (@isaaaspector)
Stunt Coordinator - Justin Glory

Makeup - Liz Rhodes (@thelizrhodes)
Hair - Matia Emsellem (@matia.inc)
Wardrobe Stylist - Rachel Haas ("@haasofstyle
@haasrach")

Photographer - Gabriel Gamboa (@gabo__gamboa)
BTS Video - Sterling Hedges (@sterlinghedges)
Somesuch BTS Photographer - Tobi Omola (@tobiomola)

Editor -Cabin Edit / Amber Saunders (@cabinedit @amber.saunders_)
Color - Blacksmith / Mikey Pehanich (@blacksmithvfx @mikeypackage)

Special Thanks to Shiseido (@shiseido)

LYRICS
Why am I alive now?
I don’t want to be witness
Seeing all of this duress
Aching of our world

Why am I alive now?
I don’t want to feel this
Aching color of our world

Why am I alive now?
Watching all this going down
All the animals around
Watching Nature swoon and sigh
Watching all the water dry
Watch the sky fall to the Earth
Birds and insects looking for a place to hide

Why am I alive to watch this duress?
Why am I seeing this stress?
Hide me from my disease
Why am I alive now
Seems there’s nothing left hold
Except keep trying to accept

Hour after lonely hour
Collecting my mind
How did I arrive here?
I don’t know much of anything

Except that you will take my life
I don’t know why
I don’t want to see your face
Meeting me when it’s too late
Many people falling
Many people sighing

Once everything was a part of me
How did I come to be?
Now everything’s gone to the floor
And all I ever want is more

Feel the trees begin to leave
Smoke swallow each mountain side
A rail of tears leads to the sea
No more footsteps in the sand
All our memories are sinking
Into un-living

I don’t know
Why am I alive here?
I don’t know much of anything

I don’t know
I don’t know why I’m alive now!