I SPENT $29,000 ON NIKKI!! SO, WHAT NOW?

As usual I appreciate your time and know that every second you’ve watched means the absolute world 🖤
As a long time player for 6 years in the Nikkiverse and heavy spender for 5 years, it was rather hard for me to say some of the things I said because it's not easy just going from being all in to simply dropping something that was everything to you.
Know that you as my audience have done nothing wrong and you guys were my constant motivation to continue pushing forward everyday. Such is, that this is why I felt compelled to share with you how I really felt/how I've been feeling over the course of the last few months.
You guys have gotten me this far and I would not be here today if it weren't for y'all.

I no longer play Love Nikki, actually the clip shared in this video was my first time logging on in months! I offloaded the app some time during 2022 as my love for Shining Nikki grew and I started playing other games. The sets although gorgeously designed, respectfully to me started looking all the same. I started to see patterns with the same recycled posing and elements of older sets mixed with "new" ones. It felt like a scrapbook bucket of leftovers modpodged together.

I spent the first few years of my Nikkiverse journey promoting the Starry Corridor (a gameplay feature similar to reverie on Love Nikki) on Instagram. I would post my creations and re-share others from within the community. I was so invested that I became a moderator for the Love Nikki Official Facebook group; Where I would dedicate hours of my day to helping players get questions answered about the game or help that they needed with technical issues etc
I joined the Love Nikki Test Server to test gameplay and give feedback to make sure that when events released it was a smooth sailing experience for players.
All of this on my time. Mornings when I would wake up and have a few moments to spare, nights when I would get out of work, sometimes pulling all nighters on the group because we were so backed up on getting back to people during events.

Fast forward to the current timeline where I made videos as content creator for Shining Nikki.
Taking full days to grab screens, do voiceovers, slide layouts, edit the whole process, and then wait for the video to upload. While simultaneously running my gaming Instagram account where I would share outfit edits I made for fun, games I would create for the community, information slides I would make to share for those that don't get on Youtube etc

Like I said in the video somewhere along the lines, my feelings of being unappreciated for all that I have done and was continuing to do just reached their limit. I understand that all I did was of my volition, but looking back at it, it is exactly what would stir up all these feelings to begin with. Because I felt like everything, all the time and money just amounted to nothing.
A great example of all of this, is this channel. It's been 2 years since since I created this account and I've yet to hit 2k subscribers. No matter how hard I tried, how much I promoted on different social medias (Reddit, Facebook, Twitter, Insta) or how much I uploaded, I just wasn't seeing support. I don't know how else to convey my feelings to you without it just continuously sounding like I'm being an ungrateful b word lol but I am simply being as honest with you as I can. In my mind it translated to, "Where is all that support you have shown to the community, for you?"

Now please don't get confused. It's not that I'm seeking monetary compensation, and I know that there are players out there that spend way more than me. The spending itself isn't the sole issue, the issue is that I happen to be a content creator that spends all this money.
All that I wanted was to feel like I was doing a good job. I wanted to see the reward in the support of my peers and for it to translate in the views of my videos, the overall growth of my channel.
At the end of the day I believe that no one is to blame here but myself, because I let it all get to me and because I just didn't have enough hours of the day. I wish that I had all the time in the world to edit and upload constantly to the point where my reach would not be affected, but sadly that's not the case and realistically it will never be. I tried to deny the reality of it all but the result was just me burning myself out.

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