Treat myself better [multifandom]

Wow, okay im actually doing this, it's been so long it's scary actually. I've been gone for a long time now, but I'm alive tho. This was all feels tbh, and idk it just ended up like this without any plan, but I don't think I've ever had a plan i've followed anyways so.
I really love this song, and every song I love I wanna share with you. And I feel like this video is the definition of me "not being okay" lmao, cause when she posts this kind of content you know something is going on...omg, I don't even remember how to write descriptions...but it's fine, I'm okay. I'm okay!! Editing actually really makes me feel like I'm allowed to "feel" life even tho it's painful and hard. Like you can watch a movie and cry about your own life...but you're still crying about the movie if that makes sense.

I hope some of the things on my channel still can make someone's day better. It's honestly my only goal with this channel. And I hope I still have some of my skills, even tho this does not feel remotely good. But, I have been out of the editing game for a long time now, and I hope I can just sit down and play around with whatever idea I might have cause I've actually really missed creating things. I just need to post this and not think about it cause the more I think the worse I feel like this video is and this description is so. I hope someone can relate to this. Yt is strict so I don't wanna get banned or get a warning, but I still think it's important to be real and honest even tho it goes against YT guidelines. It's hard making videos when you have to fit into a box and not being able to create what you want. Even tho I've been more busy with life and stuff, I think its one of the main reasons I lost the inspiration to make real things, because the more real I am, the more strikes I get...and I don't wanna lose this channel so, I'm being careful. Anyways sorry for the rant, thank you to every single person who still watched my videos, I know a lot of them have been taken down, but the fact that you're still watching means the world. Thank you so much. I hope someone likes this. hugs.