crazy bitch [you s1]

Last video of 2018. I wish I had the energy to make something banging and epic but this is literally all I can contribute with. I also wish I could end this year in a better place but, mental illness isn't exactly something you can choose when to hit you and when to stay away. News years has never been a favorite of mine, and I know it, not the only one. All in all this year has been chaotic. When I've finally been able to feel joy for life I've been appreciating it much more than most, but it also made my down periods harder than expected. I've traveled more than I've done in 5 years in total, I've been blessed with good things but also experienced shit like divorce in my family and moving around. My mental state has been all over the place. I ended up inpatient but didn't finish which made me really feel like a failure.

I hope I've made this year somewhat better with my edits, but I'm not gonna pretend I only make these for you guys, we all know this is therapy in its self for me. I've learned a lot too, about myself, what I need, what I definitely don't need, how important friends are and how much stronger struggling really makes you.

All I know is that 2019 will be better. For me and for you guys. Everything that happens makes you stronger. A new tattoo is waiting for me this year "everything happens for a reason" and I wanna make that my mantra for 2019.

my year in music
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