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YOU CAME OUT FOR ME
© rich pagano
Late June 2021. After 5+ months of sobriety, a cloud of darkness plus hovering self doubt and unnerving anxiety returned. Nic searched out milder than heroin substances to relax: acid tabs, over the counter sleeping liquids. The portal was now open. His agitation toward us when we visited him at his sober house was high and argumentative. Before he got out of the car, he looked at me with sad eyes and said, "I'm sorry."
For a moment, I saw him in there - not the demon. He then ran to his house. I chased him for a hug, begrudgingly on his part. This was the last time I would see him. Two weeks later, fentanyl would take him.

lyrics:

You came out
to see me
Wasn’t a greeting
Didn’t say goodbye

Pushing on through
To tell me
That you were sorry
As you looked into my eyes

In the wink
They pulled you back in
Deep in the black pit
Running out of time
I couldn’t change you mind

I SAW YOU IN THERE
SOMETIMES WE SAY WHAT WE DON’T MEAN
WE HURT ONES THAT WE ARE CLOSEST TO
NOW YOU ARE FREE
BUT YOU CAME OUT FOR ME

I called you out
Confronted
You felt hunted
Separated from the tribe

Sitting shotgun
You weren’t lingering
Knew I was hurting
Wouldn’t let me see you crying

You chose the packet
But it was counterfeit
now everybody’s pining
Cause it wasn’t worth you dying

I SAW YOU IN THERE
AND WHAT YOU SAID YOU DIDN’T MEAN
WE HURT ONES WE ARE CLOSEST TO
AND NOW YOU ARE FREE
BUT FIRST YOU CAME OUT FOR ME

15 and 5
Such a short life
The last had its light
But the first were divine

Like Karras and Regan
For only a moment
Saw your salvation
It was the very last time
I looked into your eyes

I SAW YOU IN THERE
AND WHAT YOU SAID YOU DIDN’T MEAN
WE HURT ONES WE ARE CLOSEST TO
AND NOW YOU ARE FREE
BUT FIRST YOU CAME OUT FOR ME

HOLD STILL LIGHT ESCAPES (scheduled for a January 2025 release)
10 songs chronicling a 5 year journey of a young adult's navigation through a substance use disorder.
Go to richpagano.com for more info.
Some proceeds of this body of work will benefit The Nic Pagano LGBTQIA+ Scholarship for Recovery.
To donate: https://www.releaserecoveryfoundation...
Recorded at New Calcutta Recordings and VlyLand Recordings
Produced and mixed by Rich Pagano.
Mastered by Fred Kevorkian.
Thanks to Kevin Bents, Andy York, Ben Zwerin, Chris Anderson and Neal Pawley.