Скачать или смотреть A Beautiful Mind - L'ayah prod. Xenshel

lyrics by l'ayah:
she asked if ima die i say probably.
she asked what i think, havent really thought bout it.
voices in my head, thot give me head, sloppy
dead inside, im so numb like zombie
loss too much, know i cant say sorry
so many faces, i can't remember hardly
route 66 and im zooming in a rari
highway to Hell or to Heaven, Lord i'm sorry
but life's been war i got scars on my body
ptsd, i dont trust nobody
life's no game, no damn atari
my souls been lost, i came here to party
part of me thinkin' i lost myself living too damn gnarly.

alright so basically i wrote this one from a place of i've been dealing with my mental health a lot recently with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder causing a wreck in my life. especially clanging, hallucinations, anxiety, depression, manic episodes, and other stuff on top of all that thats been driving me freaking insanez in da membrane. my brain is pretty much just lost but its alright. also, im ngl. like im naughty gawnna lieee, i dont be living dis rockstar life, im jus vibing to the beat tryna make something sound cool. idunno, its whatever. idc much tbh. got some other stuff to worry about thats much bigger than all this so this stuff just keeps my mind off things. all of this is just to keep my mind off things. i think. idunno. i really dont know what everything is doing to me. wish i could have a peaceful healthy healing life. been through a lot... just want a day i dont feel im stuck in the same cycle again. siri play Allowed To Be Happy from the Last Of Us part 2 soundtrack and let me pour da apple juice its one of them nights.