Nathan Wagner - Introspection

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All Songs Written and Produced by Nathan Wagner
All Instruments performed by Nathan Wagner
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Here's my second studio album "Introspection." I was inspired by Jungs concept of the conscious self being controlled by the neurosis of the unconscious self until slaying the monster within through "Introspection." Taking time to try understand the roots of the pains and the traumas and the lies they made you believe so you can do your best to heal. To try and rewire your mind back to a healthy place. There's nothing harder. But I believe it's worth it. I love you all so much. I never thought anyone would care to listen. Could not be more grateful. May God bless each and every one of you.

Dedicated to my Father, Jeff Wagner. My ambition in life is to be a man like you. Thank you for setting such a good example for me, my brothers, and now our mens group. Hugest thank you to my wife Tiffany, my mother Sarah and my brothers Sam, Zach, Jeremy and Joseph. You believed in me when I couldn't believe in myself. Saw the good in me when I couldn't see it in myself. I owe you everything. Lastly, thank you to my God. My creator. Jesus. The one who inspired each and every song. Everything good I have comes from you. My life is yours.


Lyrics:
Dreams of my Downfall
Drifting through moments then all of the sudden it hits me
What if I stumble and all of my world starts to fall
The people I love lose respect though they swore they're unwavering
Everything crumbles as I'm just here losing it all

Hearing these critics they're cheering and saying they hate me
Taking my whole life of work and burn it to the ground
Was trying to open my heart and they go and betray me
Putting a knife in my back without making a sound

I could be doing fine perfect life everything is great
'til you take my mind and hypnotize show my world in flames
Nowhere to hide from what's inside can't run can't get away
Guess one more night of constant fight it always stays the same

Won't you let me go
I'm crumbling
I'm crumbling

Fantasizing bout the worst that could be I'm not ready
Making decisions preserving what's not even real
false prophecies keep on following make me unsteady
Just wanna be free of these troublesome dreams let me be

I could be doing fine perfect life everything is great
Til you take my mind awaken all my memories my mistakes
And you hang them high won't let them die control me with my shame
Say wait til they can see your darkest parts and run away

But you're never right you always lie your promise never comes
I'm still standing I'm still breathing having died not from your gun
Haven't fallen in the slaughter lost the people that I love
You're a liar you're a thief and It's time to give you up

Won't you let me go
I'm crumbling
I'm crumbling
Won't you let me go
I'm crumbling
I'm crumbling

My father
Please take this thorn
Cause I'm bleeding
I'm tired and worn
Please listen
Don't you hear me cry
I'm weary
I need your light

The antihero
Look at all this devastation
Walk away humiliated
Ignorance revived this dormant
Beast inside now I can't take it there's

Blood on my hands
Now this moment is stamped in my
Memory, I panic
Created catastrophe
Can't take it back
Now I am who I am
My innocence vanquished
The criminal awakened

Who could save me now?
Watch me spiral down
I made such a mess of my conscience
It's making me nauseous
Been drifting so slowly
It's takin me fully, oh
Who could save me now?

This virus is over bearing
This trauma is never letting go
The darkness it creeps
In all of my bеing
This monster is taking all control
Had no one to listen, no onе to care
Everyone acted like I wasn't there
Was only a kid
How could I forgive?
See vengeance will be my only

Hope, don't save me now
Watch me spiral down
I made such a mess of my conscience
It's making me nauseous
If no one will love me
At least they'll feel something, oh
Who can save me now?

Don't steal my soul
Don't steal my soul
Don't steal my soul
Let me be

The Hero
Waking up to the sound
Sirens screaming aloud
So disoriented how'd this happen
These buildings are crumbling down

Hear everyone panic
This monsters gone manic
Pray somethin can to turn this around
My cities in ruins
I'm feeling so useless
Can't even get off the ground

I'm calling all heroes
Legends and stars
Anyone listening just open your heart
I've gotta do something
I wish I were strong enough to see
A hero in me

All these people they need me
But fears got me freezing
I can't even get off the floor
All these minutes are fleeting
More damage he's leaving
Don't wanna be a coward anymore