[TW ed] another slipup but that's life | binge vlog | choc, ice cream, wraps, and cake

i wish i could disappear off of the face of mother gaia but in a painless and silent way ASLDKFHLKASDFLK
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♢♢♢ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ʀᴇᴄᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʙɪɴɢɪɴɢ ♢♢♢

𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕩𝕥:
I’ve always had a large appetite, but I was able to have a healthy relationship with food before university. Living alone and dealing with stress and the abundance of freedom (oh, the plethora of food choices) overwhelmed me into disordered eating. Though i haven’t been formally diagnosed, eddie (ED) has definitely been haunting me for 2~3 years now.
I DO NOT PURGE because I have
a) no gag reflex
b) emetophobia (the phobia of throwing up)

I like editing videos because it’s my passion. Recording my binges provides me an opportunity to both comfort myself and others. Documenting everything I ate/binged helps me keep track as well (trust me, I literally can’t remember what I binged on bc I have the memory of a goldfish). I know I am not pro-recovery but I put TWs in front of all my videos so that you know I am in no way promoting eddie. ever.

I am currently seeking professional help too! Even when I binge because I lost control, I actively reflect upon what triggered me and what I should change to avoid making myself feel so physically and mentally sad :3