Talking Gay Loneliness | The Queerness Diaries

My experience with ADHD and anxiety has often left me feeling like a social outcast, especially in the gay community, where the often transactional nature of relationships triggers my RSD. I have always felt deeply connected to people extremely fast, and the rejection in realising a lot of these relationships were nothing to the other person has been a difficult one. As the years have gone on, I have pulled away from making so much effort into relationships and trying to let them form organically, but suffered from the imposter syndrome of doubting myself in social situations to the point I just end up on my own.

I wanted to talk today about my experience with navigating this loneliness. Many can relate to this, even back in 2017, the happiest year of my life. That Huffington Post article struck a chord with me, as someone who has always felt socially awkward, struggled with coping mechanisms in the past to fit in, and ultimately became isolated.

I feel like the discussions in the community we need to have more of are the ones that hit deep. I've lost myself and many people in my life, and I yearn to start a new chapter.