trying to get my motivation back to where it was before (read desc. pls)

badminton isnt fun if its forced
im stuck with forced to play the one thing i dont want to persue
the only things i can persue left are speedcubing and trying to maintain this channel alive
to be fair my mom did force me to badminton for exercise but im now getting dragged to play for my school now
i dont wanna disappoint them anymore
im getting tired about it
just a rant that i want to set out for a long time
and the way you can make me motivated is not be an asshole to me
im a soft person in this state
you can also help by subscribing cause it lets me know that you guys are here for me to getting my motivation back
sounds stupid but thats how i feel now
atleast i finally got to voice this out of my chest after a long long time.....


now for your normal description:
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tags(ignore pls): FNF, Funky Friday, Friday Night Funkin', Blue Zenith, Cookiezi, mrekk, merak, BTMC, Camellia, Sillyfangirl, jkzu123, Freedom Dive, Blue Zenith, Chordjack, Eliminate294, Delta Dan, Chordjack, Jack, Speedjack