Jeremy Olander - Hollow Halls

I know that I shouldn't miss you but it's just something that keeps knocking on the back of my brain and it's telling me that you exist, and I know you exist.
I know I never said it enough, or maybe I just didn't show it, but I love you.
No matter how many times we fell apart, I'd always be ok with brushing off the dirt and getting right back on the bike.
If anything, I just wish you the best.
It's not like you will care to play this back.
And if you did, why would you care what I have to say?
Because to you I'm really just that one girl that got away.
Except I'm not, because I'm right here, and I'll always be right here.
I built a home in you, remember?
Maybe that's why I'm so distraught?
I miss home.
I miss you.
It's been months since we last spoke.
I can't help but wonder if my home was overthrown by the flames and you just got lost in the smoke.
Because by now you'd be back and we'd be ok.
I keep every memory safe.
I don't let anyone touch them.
I can't promise that I won't keep torturing myself to go back to replay them.
The times we had were short-lived but they were amazing nonetheless.
I hear the laughing in my mind telling me to just leave it, and you, behind.
I remember when we first met.
We spoke and it was like we had already known each other for years.
Or maybe that's just me...
And I cried over not knowing if I'm ever going to keep coming and going.
It seems now that I'm stuck where I stand, pretending I don't know you.
Things won't get easier, I know that now for sure, but I just wanted to say it all one last time before I attempt to let you go... for good.