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Gestern bekam ich diesen Clip für mich als besonderes Geburtstagsgeschenk...Mira - 24 Jahre - stand kurz vor dem Tod und dass wir noch einmal so zusammen sein können ist ein kleines Wunder. Diese aussergewöhnliche Persönlichkeit hat mich so viel gelehrt - was Loslassen, Demut,Tapferkeit und Hingabe bedeuten und Mit Pferden sein...danke Jaana für diesen wundervollen Clip - please read more from our story in English
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Today I received a special present – two clips in which my horses are taking part. Mira’s video especially moved me deeply because we nearly lost her last spring. Here is the text I wrote then. The video shows us both being together after that testing period. She is so extraordinary, she comes with such a personality. In the clip Mira is 24 years old.
Excerpt Letting Be 2014:
This year I have passed a period of fateful examination. Maybe this too belongs to Being With Horses… to let it be, to feel for and for somebody to surrender to fate, as I called it the other day. I was caught in memories then of years ago, when through my thoroughly good-hearted father was dying, his disrespectful treatment in hospital, my helplessness which overpowered me when I saw him being treated so callously and his unpleasant bedroom there, no loving hands around. We had not the chance to bring him home in time.
Back to my beginning: My mare Mira was so ill that I wanted, and felt the urge to let the vet put her down. For 24 years she was mine, but only in this last period of time did I truly realise her personality, what and who she really was.
I see now that I can’t own her, I don’t own her – she just shares with me a place to live. She is herself, owned by no one but herself – a true animal of integrity – a real seminal figure – a queen. I wish I could be so superior and confident, wise and courageous.
When I looked her in the eye I saw her pain but also her strength, her patience, her persistence. She refused my pity, at best she accepted compassion. One day, when she felt seemingly so bad I thought the end was near I led her into our small riding hall. I hoped to give her lasting comfort there, the possibility to at least writhe for a last time. I stood there, watched her and gave up. I Gave up every hope, every wish. I saw just her, with her everlasting pain, against which there was no help. Quietly I told her how much I adored her for her fight. I told her I adored her because she’d never given up. I told her I myself would never stand that amount of pain. I told her that I remarked how brave she was and that I had no idea what else I could do. And I asked her if she wanted to go.
I just stood there, tears in my eyes and let it all be, let her be. That was the moment she approached me swaying and stroked my cheek with her upper lip the way a person would do with their finger and then she stood with me. It was unbelievable – I had the impression it was as if she intended to comfort me. I was literally touched by her compassion.
Later a vet arrived and we planned how to put her down. What my mare did was to put all her strength into getting up and I knew then she was not yet ready to leave this world.
A few weeks later it was time. She was so bad I decided to help her in leaving this world. My daughter Josephine and I passed the day on her pasture, there was no reason anymore why she should not eat anything she liked, it was still cool, only April. The vet should come in the evening. When time came and we took her from the pasture where she was among her herd, she went with us, not really fine but much better than all the weeks before. Josephine was crying and asked me to give her another chance but I just sadly shook my head. And then there she was ,in her box, the queen radiating her strength and watching us with her wonderful eyes. The vet came, examined her briefly and said: “I can’t put her down, she looks well enough, she doesn’t walk badly enough. I just can’t do it ” and off he went. He decided for me, a mercy then. Ever since that evening Mira recovered she got better and better, she is well today. She can be together with her herd on the pasture even at night sometimes. An unbelievable small wonder.
What did I learn?
To let it all be. To surrender, to feel that, what she was telling me really that day and not to listen to others or to do what they expected me to do.
However, mainly I learned to be abject in a situation in which I couldn’t do anything, couldn’t help at all. I learned to accept fate. I learned to love beyond expectation. I learned to let things happen and still not to give up. I just was humbled…

Nachtrag am 10. September ,genau 17 Monate später ging Mira für immer-