Скачать или смотреть Hello (Goodbye) | Original Lyrics by Cassandra James (@jaedeura)

LYRICS

[Intro]

I keep saying I’m lonely…
but even a simple “hey” feels dangerous
(dangerous… dangerous…)

[Chant]

oh‑hh… oh‑hh…
hold back… fall back…

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[Verse 1]

I shut down when someone reaches out,
like my heart remembers too well what opening up can cost
(cost… cost…)
I talk to strangers where nothing sticks,
because connection feels safer when it can’t become real
(safer… safer…)
And every time someone messages me directly,
my body remembers the last person who slipped in quietly
and left me with a wound I didn’t know how to name
(hello… goodbye…)

[Chant]

don’t let ’em in… don’t let ’em in…
not again… not again…

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[Pre‑Chorus]

I hate how exposing anything now feels like stepping into open flame,
how being soft feels like a setup for another break
(breaking… breaking…)

[Chant]

keep still… breathe slow…

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[Chorus]

So yeah, I say I’m lonely—
but I run from every message I don’t know how to answer
(answer… answer…)
I want love,
but I’m terrified of letting someone in
just to watch them disappear when I finally trust
(leave me… leave me…)
My heart keeps flinching at things that shouldn’t hurt,
and I’m scared one small hello
could shatter what’s left of me
(again… again… again)

[Chant]

oh‑oh‑oh… stay away… stay away…
I can’t… I can’t… I can’t…

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[Verse 2]

There are parts of me I can’t imagine giving a third time—
my body was shared twice in my entire life,
once with someone who betrayed me,
and once with someone who held me gently
before leaving a bruise I never saw coming
(echo… echo…)
Now the thought of offering myself again
feels like slicing open a healed scar
just to watch it bleed
(falling… falling…)
I don’t want to be exposed like a memory—
I want to be held like I’m not disposable
(matter… matter…)
and that fear is louder than my loneliness.

[Chant]

hold me… don’t hold me…
want me… don’t want me…

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[Pre‑Chorus 2]

People say “just move on,”
but they don’t understand how trauma sits in the body,
how it locks every door before I even touch the handle
(heavy… heavy…)

[Chant]

I know… I know…

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[Chorus]

So yeah, I say I’m lonely,
but I can’t take another gentle goodbye
(goodbye… goodbye…)
I crave connection,
but I don’t trust myself to survive
one more almost‑love that teaches me how to break again
(almost… almost…)
I’m scared of hope,
scared of trust,
scared that letting anyone close
will destroy me more than being alone ever has
(ever has… ever has…)

[Chant]

don’t break me… don’t break me…
not again… not again…

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[Bridge]

It’s exhausting wanting love
but being terrified of the cost of being touched again
(tired… tired…)
It’s exhausting knowing I only open my body
when I trust someone with my whole soul—
and the last time I did,
it left me scared of my own vulnerability
(stay… stay…)

[Chant]

oh‑hh… oh‑hh… oh‑hh…

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[Final Chorus]

So yeah… I say I’m lonely,
but maybe loneliness feels safer than rebuilding myself
after another goodbye
(safer… safer…)
Because one hello is all it takes for someone to matter,
and one goodbye can ruin me completely
(ruin me… ruin me…)
I can’t give my body a third time
and survive the breaking that might follow
(not twice… not twice…)

[Chant]

I’m scared… I’m scared… I’m scared…
hello… goodbye…

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[Outro]

I’m lonely,
but too afraid to let anyone close enough
to leave fingerprints on my soul again.