Tiny Desk Contest 2024 - Pesticides by Moselle

"We are all just walking each other home" - Ram Dass

Lyrics:
I think i accidentally smoked pesticides or pcp
the year before i left for college
Everything looked like a deep fried meme
I think somebody laced my weed
I didn’t do it to myself I promise

My mama warned me about
little pills and older men
strawberry fields that never end
She did her time
Somehow escaped that clawing hand
a strength i'll never understand
that iron grip can get so tight

What if I broke this Stupid glass over my Dumb head?
Let all the Blood run down my arms til the Garden’s fed
Wait til the flowers Bloom in the same place that I Bled
Make a Bouquet hoping i’m half as useful when i'm Dead

My hair was blue when i met you
Once purple pink even green too
Poison dart frog taught me well
Playing pretend for $10 a seat
What a small price to meet the queen of hell

Springs and caves and muggy weather
Things that make me feel i’m tethered
As no one else is to their home
Broken needles hummingbird feeders
neural pathways over catacombs

What if I broke this Stupid glass over my Dumb head?
Let all the Blood run down my arms til the Garden’s fed
Wait til the flowers Bloom in the same place that I Bled
Make a Bouquet hoping i’m half as useful when i'm Dead

Oh my love i have done it again
I have forced you to prove that when
I fall
You will catch me
Shadows in my corner again but right before the dark can win you call
Out to me
And i didn’t think that i’d find anyone
With half a brain to think i'm the one
They’d like to wander home with

What if I broke this Stupid glass over my Dumb head?
Let all the Blood run down my arms til the Garden’s fed
Wait til the flowers Bloom in the same place that I Bled
Make a Bouquet hoping i’m half as useful when i'm Dead