【Eleanor Forte】Deja vu?【SynthV English Cover】

cw: suicide

had this song stuck in my head ever since i first heard it, so i wanted to make an english version. enjoy!
original: @21Clown (   • Deja vu? ft. 歌愛ユキ  )

- lyrics - (free to use, no credit necessary)

deja vu deja vu deja vu
same scenes repeating the same things in endless loops
numb so long ago i couldn’t say when it started once again
deja vu deja vu deja vu
knew you were dead but i kept coming back to you
load, reload, reload, this day in my head, continue from save state

soaking wet student handbook
add up the points and connect the dots to
scans of the ocean where you were last seen
rise to the surface a tragic ending
give you some decorations
chocolate and makeup for your embalming
bring me along when you blow up your next life
intrusive thoughts of a bomb and a chainsaw

couldn’t make sense of it all, i’d rather it never make sense after all, i’d
like to live on head held down while i’m drowned in delusion by your illusion
know i had better accept that you’re gone, that you won’t be back
know i’d be better off
wonder if someday i’ll manage it?
say goodnight and somehow move on from this

deja vu deja vu deja vu
same scenes repeating the same things in endless loops
numb so long ago i couldn’t say when it started once again
deja vu deja vu deja vu
know you’re dead but i had to come back to you
just like the day before, tomorrow, the next day, always repeating

wake up and follow my routine
put on the clothes set aside on the night before
hurrying off to the shore where you wait for me
rushing so fast, almost tripping
ever since that day this place belongs to you and me
our own private beach
time passing too quickly, tide up to my knees, way home is closing
at this rate, i could reach you on the other side
voice in my ear, i hear
“you know you don’t have the guts to do it, though”
busting into laughter, you grin at me
wish that you wouldn’t smile so cheerfully…
”so you’re still the same coward i’ve always known”
“see you tomorrow”
hearing your laughter again
it’s keeping me chained, unable to move on

couldn’t make sense of it all, i’d rather it never make sense after all, i
couldn’t care less that i witnessed those pained remains decending to your grave
to incorporeal beings, i can’t make any vow that would stay everlasting
there’s still too much i’m afraid of
if i’m dreaming, then please never wake me up
deja vu deja vu deja vu
same scenes repeating the same things in endless loops
numb so long ago i couldn’t say when it started once again
deja vu deja vu deja vu
heavens collapsing and time has stopped moving, too
why don’t we spend all the rest of our days the same, together forever?

how many? how many times is this?
nothing has changed yet again
can’t open neither my mouth nor stomach
one more day, i’m calling to you again
how miserable i am
reminds me of what it felt like back then

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