I Lost, and I Lost

No point in getting attached to anyone, they always die, one day I'll have no one left.








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I was a girl, so soft and sweet,
so kind and shy to anyone I'd meet.
I feared the sea, but soon I'd see, just how beautiful it could really be.


I remember days, of warmth and sun, but life was not always so fun.
When she was away, he would change, into a monster, a beast, full of hate and greed.


I still hear the chime of a clock, I feel the warmth of his smile.
His smile feels burned into my memory, I never knew it was the last time I'd see him.
I thought we'd have more time, I cried.


She held me tight, as we were dressed in black, and he was dressed in white.
I cried alone, when I was told he died, I was so young, I just couldn't understand why.
Time passed, painful reminders clung to me like daggers and knives.


Then I lost her, oh I lost her, then I lost him too, I saw his life slowly draining from him, as he laid in a dim little room.
I wanted to scream, wanted to cry, but I couldn't as I watched everyone I loved slowly start to die.
It happened, so many times, and I felt no comfort, no warmth anymore, just a closed door.


Then I lost him, oh I lost him, but I felt nothing, I felt numb, I just felt empty, I realized, everyone I love will surely die.
So why, why bother loving anyone when all you do is lose them.
I feel my happiness slipping again, old wounds, the memories taunt me in my own head.
I don't trust anyone, I can't tell anyone, they would never understand me, never love me, they would leave me, leave me too.
I wish I could trust you, but you, you will leave me too, they always do.