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a painful cry
— 𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙥𝙤𝙚𝙩𝙧𝙮 ☽
poem by TJL

lonely is an understatement
when I reflect on my past
I can’t think about it
it makes me go mad

my mind starts agonizing,
I try to bury the pain
it feels overwhelming

a glass overflowing from the top
that won’t quit
no matter how much I try to stop
it keeps flowing
my negative thoughts pouring
drowning my soul
I can’t seem to let it go
it isn’t fair
nothing is fair
I know

you are only given what you can handle
but how does this go like that?
when all I ever wanted
was to have you back

when I would cry for you at night
waiting for you to come
longing for you
it isn’t a surprise that you never showed
how can you say you loved me?
when you were absent for so many years?

the unbearable rejection
is extreme and desperate
for compassion and desire

how can you rest your head
on your pillow at the end of the day
when you have been nothing
but cold and dark
a shadow in your heart

do you have no empathy?
is your conscious empty?
it may have been years ago
yet I will never get over the hurt

I loved you unconditionally

you burnt my name
made me a shame
ran me through the dirt
left me lying there
worthless

abandoned for the last time

I could continue
with the tears and the trauma
but you must know
you are not worth the words anymore

I refuse to give into the the drama

the toxic heartache that follows your actions

I will rise up
I will rise up everyday

last thing I need to say
it is your loss


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