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Engine running, eyes on the rear-view light
Check the door twice before I sleep at night
Back to the wall when I sit in a room
Laugh too loud and I wait for the doom

Weigh myself, number climbs one line
Suddenly I’m failing at being fine
Read one text with a different tone
Now my mind says I’m on my own

Every word I said replayed again
Did I hurt you? Did I offend?
If I don’t ask, I’m not invited
If I don’t chase, I’m not included

How could you love a heart like this?
Full of alarms that don’t exist
I know they’re lies, I know they’re small
But they get loud inside these walls
I built a throne, I built control
Still scared you’ll walk, still scared you’ll go
I’m strong outside, but underneath
There’s gremlins whispering defeat

They say I’m loved, they say they care
But actions fade into thin air
I’m the call when no one’s free
The extra chair at table three

If plans change, I’m first to drop
If someone better shows, they swap
Am I too much? Or not enough?
Too soft inside? Too built up tough?

I fear being happy, it ends in tears
So I swallow joy before it appears
From laughing loud to crying loudly,
I dim my light, stand judged so proudly.

How could you love a heart like this?
Always braced for what it’ll miss
I know it’s fear, I know it’s old
But it still keeps me in its hold
Drogo the brave, Drogo the strong
But tell me where do I belong?