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Desolate & Vacant (But Not Alone) - Single
Music and Lyrics by David Keller
Photo by Michael Mihok

For those who feel like hope is gone and that the void is worth it, please consider checking out the following organizations. They helped me tremendously over the past few years to stay on this earth.

To Write Love On Her Arms : https://twloha.com
Heart Support : https://www.heartsupport.com

Mark 10:27
Psalms 38
Ecclesiastes 1, 12

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Can I be more than enough?
Or can the thoughts in my head be enough to see tomorrow?
I swear to God it's a constant fight in my own head
And I know that I am losing do I even care?

I'm waking up just to fall asleep
I'm cracking jokes so no one can see
Can I be more than the thoughts in my head,
Or will I just cave in and let go to who i'm not.

I'm drowning here and I was drowning there
The world might come at me
while I just try to spit these pills that have to go down my throat
Maybe I'll be me, Maybe I'll not
Who the hell knows

Cause God I'm stuck inside this cycle
As I wash, rinse, and recycle
Everyday it feels the same
Every night I'm filled with shame
Cause I'm one step closer to getting in control of my brain
But I know I replaced replaced with a shell of who I am

One step forward and two steps back,
Every day I lie say that I'm ok
But deep down I know that I'm a fraud

Two steps back, for one step forward
Can I know my own worth?

Can I be more than enough?
Or can the thoughts in my head be enough to see tomorrow?
I swear to God it's a constant fight in my own head
And I know that I am losing do I even care?

Everyday's a constant struggle to care just a little fucking more
Than the day before, I don't know why I must go on
Without the world on my own shoulders,
Whats the fucking point?
Everyone says I'll be ok, But I'm starting to not believe

To the gods above and below,
to the gods inside of my own chest
To the God above I lift my hands up in shame
As I wonder if I can come back home

And feel your love, and feel your grace
And hope that I can feel shame once again
Do I even deserve the grace of my next mistake?
Is there even a place in my home if you let me come back

And I know that I can't do this on my own
I just want to know that my life is worth your time
'Cause I feel like I've pruned myself
(You must relent)

Two steps back, for one step forward
Can I know my own worth?

Can I be more than enough?
Or can the thoughts in my head be enough to see tomorrow?
I swear to God it's a constant fight in my own head
And I know that I am losing do I even care?

Everyday's a constant struggle to care just a little fucking more
Than the day before, I don't know why I must go on
Without the world on my own shoulders,
Whats the fucking point?
Everyone says I'll be ok, But I'm starting to not believe

And every nightmare has to end,
And every season must relent

You think your so far gone. How did you get so far?

And everyday I think of you.
Tattooed on my chest, in my heart, in my brain
And everyday I waste my time just waiting for you to come back to me
I'm so far gone from everything