I Alone - T-KOZY

lyrics:

sciatica from the universe on my back
been doing the soul searching i usually do on wax
And all my friends just too disturbed by the fact
that relapse is so certain, it’s looming, posed to attack
i fought it off, at the last hurtle i crashed
bastards words slurring or spattering speaking fast
Todays dose used to last a week and a half
the pasture was greener when she was laughing and skipping class
Now everyone’s in a casket or got they hands on a glass
While I’m way too caught up unravelling in my past
powder callin like siren songs,
resolving to ball thru my withdrawals
still the shine in my eye is gone
spent so long tryna kill the man in the mirror
cuz i hate the way that he brings me down
I had to be him to end up as me
So maybe i can keep that fucker around

any time i was outta mind
i’m the only help i’ve known
all the nights it was me and a knife
and i felt i had to cleanse my soul
X2

Swear to god I’m about to fight my reflection
i don’t recognize the man that i see
A druggie dropout with close to zero options
whose closets looking like a pharmacy
arms scarred, no fault but my own
all the vultures circle when they watch me bleed
next time I’m about to lose my mind
ima need officers on the scene
Cuz what you think is drastic
is just another passing fleeting thought in my dreams
so when they find me with tablets all around me
Everyone’ll see what i’ve seen

any time i was outta mind
i’m the only help i’ve known
all the nights it was me and a knife
and i felt i had to cleanse my soul
X2