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This is a personal sharing as I experience my mean Black Moon Lilith return in Gemini on Gate 45 exactly today January 2, 2022. We had an eclipse on this point back on June 10, 2021 with Mercury retrograde and it was super intense burning away of this aspect of what I'm calling the spiritual ego. It's here again but this time I'm more aware of the pattern and rather than repress something, I am speaking to it and calling it out. Feels like it took the power away by just sharing about it.

It is my mean BML in my 11th House groups of people and the house of trauma and is a vulnerable energy. How I feel this energy is a strong desire to be seen as radically unique, confident and intelligent and yet a deep fear of sharing this part of myself due to lifetimes of persecution, death and feelings of shame around speaking up and sharing. Also there is jealousy about people who are able to share so freely and a judgement of other people's spiritual ego. Also feeling guilty and unspiritual when using my sharp intellect.

Luckily none of it is who I really am. I'm able to watch as the spiritual ego (Gate 45) and the mental spinning rears it's head after another beautiful cycle of awakening of the heart and falling into a deeper connection with my Being. And so it cycles. Wearing something down.

Bringing my attention to being aware of this cycle allows it to be here without resistance and this time I'm not being sucked up in the identification with it as much. Expressing it here has helped me to see it even more clearly. Thank you for your witness. Deep self acceptance of this aspect and perhaps allowing myself to publicly share even when it feels egotistical and vulnerable is where the greatest empowerment is in this Black Moon Lilith placement. After-all this point in our chart is about speaking up authentically from the heart, even if it stirs up the status quo.

Do you have BML in Gemini? How do you experience this energy?

If you have any planets between 17° - 22.37° Gemini they are being triggered by BML now and until the end of January while BML is traveling through Gate 45.