5000mg.

Music and Lyrics by Grey Sky Falls, copyright 2021

I can’t shake these aches

I can’t shake these aches again, I can’t feel my face again, 5000 mg in my bed, take it and never feel this way again.

For the past two weeks, I’ve been drowning in darkness, it creeps up on me. Every day it always leads back to the same fucking thing. Trapped in my mind, I can’t find a way to escape, it invades, suffocates. Worthless, pointless, helpless, brain dead.

For the past two weeks I’ve been dying, no more crying, please god someone help me. (For all the times that I stayed awake at night and start to shake, never ending) Ive been counting the days I’ve been stuck in a haze wishing I could just change today. But I’m stuck in my lane never making a change, never making these gains. Temporary

I can’t shake these mother fucking aches
I can’t shake these aches again, I can’t feel my face again, 5000 mg in my bed, take it and never feel this way again.

So tonight I’m going out with a bang, the end of a legacy that never got to see its day. Every time I look inside, I only see disgust.. Hate and pain.

Why not kill the monster I made, why not take away all of the mother fucking pain, why not end the way my blood gets drained, why not end the way I rot in shame.

This is not the way I wanted to live my life, take away the pain every single fucking night. This can’t be the thing that sets me free, get the fuck away, can’t let it fucking tough me now.

This is not the way I wanted to live my fucking life, take away the pain every single fucking time. I can’t be the one to set myself free, all because, all because

I can’t shake

I can’t shake these aches
I can’t shake these aches again, I can’t feel my face again, 5000 mg in my bed, take it and never feel this way again.