Envy (Stay Stable) written by me

Lyrics ⬇️

So, you’re telling me he’s taken
What is her goal?
Is it a lover, or is it a disguised hater?
I’m trying not to break so I don’t lose my mind
And I wonder, is this challenge just part of the ride?
I don’t want to see him kiss her
Don’t want to see him touch her
Don’t want to hear him say her name
I don’t want to ever see her
Don’t want to ever meet her
And I don’t want to ever see him hold her hand
in front of my face

Because this is envy that I’m feeling
And it ain’t easy
My heart is striving to stay still
To stay stable
My emotions are swarming like vicious hornets
It’s terrible
But I have to stay strong
In order to stay stable

How long will he be taken?
Will she ever get lost?
Will I have my chance ever?
Or is this forever?
I hide everything from him behind a fake smile
Hoping he doesn’t see right through me
Right through my disguise
I don’t want to see him tease her
Don’t want to see him hold her
Don’t want to hear him say her name
And I don’t want to ever know her
Don’t want to ever speak of her
And I don’t want to ever hear anything he has to say about her

Because this is envy that I’m feeling
And it ain’t easy
My heart is striving to stay still
To stay stable
My emotions are swarming like vicious hornets
It’s terrible
But I have to stay strong
In order to stay stable

One foot quickly in front of the other
I’m running through a maze, trying to find another path
I tell him I’m fine but it’s a lie
My fingers are crossed and I’m wishing he was mine
One foot quickly in front of the other
I’m running through a maze trying to find another path
I tell him I’m fine but it’s a lie
My fingers are crossed and I’m wishing he was mine
Does he really believe she can make him happy
With the drinking and the acting out?
Does he really?
If I maybe started drinking and became crazy
Would he have tried my love out?
Would he?

I can do it for him
I can do it for him

Because this is envy that I’m feeling
And it ain’t easy
My heart is striving to stay still
To stay stable
My emotions are swarming like vicious hornets
It’s terrible
But I have to stay strong
In order to stay stable

One foot quickly in front of the other
I’m running through a maze
Trying to find another path

I don’t want to hear him say her name

I have to stay strong
In order to stay stable