Скачать или смотреть Deep Sea | A quiet diary vlog (aesthetic, reading, slow moments)

I need to disappear into a deep, deep silence—
into the darkest part of the ocean, the nameless abyss.
Where glowing creatures drift like prayers,
and lost sharks float without hunger.

Down there, I imagine myself drifting for thousands of years
with eyes that no longer work,
letting the currents carry me—
no engine, no destination,
just a small warmth inside the cold water.

I want you, but you don’t want me.
I want you, but you don’t want me.
Yet in the deepest part of your heart,
I still imagine an us:
our fingers tightly entwined,
our blood turning blue.

If we were ever caught and pulled to the surface,
perhaps we would save someone’s life.
Our hard shell and armor would be torn off
along with the soft flesh inside,
helpless against the countless hands reaching for us.
Maybe that is our fate—
to be torn apart for someone else,
to become garnish on someone’s elegant dinner
while still half-alive.

In my life, someone’s shadow keeps tugging at me, whispering:
“Stay with me.
Be unhappy with me.”
Is that love?
The shadow keeps asking.
And because my heart is soft,
I only nod.

You don’t want me.
So how do wounds that deep ever heal?
Do they heal at all?
Do they simply solidify—
so that the square I once was
hardens into a heptagon?

I want to witness something unbearably beautiful.
I want to polish the dreams I’ve been saving