Psyche Luger (English Cover)「RRF」プシケルガー

"Kill life."

I thought I had left my dreams of becoming a youtaite behind, but here we are. I honestly can't believe I actually finished this. I've started so many translyrics but never actually got anything done. I kinda fell out of love with Vocaloid, so I really thought that was it. But, then I got diagnosed with Bipolar disorder and started listening to this song on repeat. I had no idea what the lyrics meant, but I decided to write my own translation. To my surprise, the rough translations I found matched up with my current moods pretty well.

DISCLAIMER: I took a LOT of liberties with this translation. I tried to use the spirit of the song to write lyrics that spoke to me (and hopefully other people). In the end, I like what I wrote ft. an aggressive use of autotune because dang those notes are impossible to hit.

(Also I couldn't do the echo-y thing that it's supposed to do in one of the verses because I don't know how so just enjoy a very long note instead.)

Original Song:    • 【重音テト】プシケルガー【オリジナル】  
Special thanks to the family members that I dragged into singing the alphabet part with me.

Lyrics:
For life to start meaning something
I’d have to solve for the value of why.
My heart is just being
dramatic.
Yeah
It doesn’t mean a thing
Not, not a thing at all.
Again that night I found you up there,
All alone you shed a tear.
“No matter what I do I’m always the person that, in the end, no one really wants around.”

Reiterate
Ingeminate
And imitate all these words
I cling onto
I’ll still forget all of these feelings
The ones that are real
Same as the ones
that I know are not true
I wanna die
I wanna die
I wanna die
Even if that’s just a lie
No one would do a thing about it
But it’s not like I would even try
I don’t know how to fix this

I’ll get in my car and I’ll drive away
From this whole world that just causes pain
Far from you, that jerk, him, her, everyone
Betcha that no one will notice I’m gone
Throw it all away and I’ll be wavin’
Petal to the metal til I hit pavement
Far from you, that jerk, him, her, everyone
Until I’m just a name from days bygone

Ahhhhh
All my thoughts swarm so I let the tears fly
Meds wash it away - My hurricane eye
Far from you, that jerk, him, her, everyone
What is it that you believe in today?
Where can I go that won’t lead me back here?
Drowning from these memories I just don’t care
Far from you, that jerk, him, her, everyone
Masks of so-called “goodness” slip away

So this melted soul dances on in the pit of my stomach
Cause I found out that the me who tried to kill you all
She couldn’t die
Even as my morals wrap tight around my neck and my words run dry
Staring at that 21 grams in a needle that’s pointing at
The you who really killed them all
Still laughing as you spoke again
“You should know. It’s obvious. That kind of thing - it doesn’t exist.”
Why?