My Therapist Didn't Show... (and I'll Be OKAY) | Repeat Event One Month Later

Hi there. Raquel again. So, sorry so much for not having an upload last week at all. I address that for a moment in this video. Also, sorry that this video is a bit sad. I'm going through it at the moment and I really, really wish I wasn't haha. I just had an epiphany with irony when I filmed this in the last hour where this EXACT same situation actually played out a month ago for the same reason (my therapist not showing up to our appointment, which is really just a no show call kind of deal) except comparatively I took it better this time, although at the same time, not by much lmao.

I never edited or uploaded that video because it was the first time it happened and I was less okay than this time. Finally felt closer lately to getting around to editing it but now it's today and we're getting this video instead. I think I'll try listening to "Better Days" by Dermot Kennedy tonight to help soothe my soul. Has anyone else ever dealt with this with their therapist before? I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about it at the moment, I feel alone. I hate that it makes me so emotional. Like I shouldn't be this bad off in my recovery. Worse still, my therapist likely thinks everything is great and dandy when that's so far from the truth but then I don't trust her enough to actually let her in, and it's damaging our therapeutic exchange. Sigh. Sad video is sad. I'll be safe. 🖤💙💔

#mentalhealth #recoverychallenges #betterdaysahead
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