Return to Life - Kin (Demo)

my final upload this year I promise
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Oceans between us
The waves I’d drown in to cross
Oceans, the currents that call me back home

The signs were always there
I was just too young and ignorant to care
Would I even be alive if I had stayed?
Or be in a fucking trench in East Ukraine
Clutching onto my weapon in vain

But I can’t let go of what I once was
Hang my head in shame and close my eyes
Hoping to see you just one last time

Once feared and revered, now laughed off the stage
A country built to die of old age
No honour to claim, no pride to regain
A lost fight, and what was the cost?
The price of their graves, or was it oil?
Guns? Bombs? Your reputation gone?

I know I forget to write you all the time
Please don’t think that I don’t care
It’s getting hard to live two lives
One for me and one pretend
For your tired eyes

As it’s fading every day
A proper chance to say goodbye
And to calm my mind
Some things just were not meant to be
It’s maybe for the best, as awful as it seems

But nothing can be done
It won’t be long until you’re gone
All the things that I regret
All the faces I forget
But I start to loathe the talks
Between the buried and myself
Oh, where time goes
Oh, where lives go

There’s always been one uncomfortable truth
You’ll never know my name, and she will never speak to you
They won’t let you see and now it’s far too late for me

Oceans between us
The waves I’d drown in to cross
Oceans, the currents that call me back home

But I can’t let go of what I once was
Hang my head in shame and close my eyes
Hoping to see you just one last time
One last time