Derealization - Bambi Baker (official video)

Stream on official platforms: https://linktr.ee/bambibaker

Wrote this song when I was 13 in foster care. Literally took foreverrrr to get something I’m satisfied with. It was such a simple idea in my mind but every time we tried to get one of my ideas it turned out impossible. I really wanted to try my best to get something that represented derealization & depersonalisation is some way instead of just what looks pretty, I wanted the outfit to represent feeling like a ghost, or like you’re completely blank and stripped of identity. The background seeming like it doesnt really match is supposed to represent feeling disconnected from your surroundings. It’s still only a lil homemade video by me and my mom, and a little help from my stepdad, but I hope you enjoyed it & thanks for watching 🤍

Also for those who are not aware, I have currently been focusing on music videos due to the fact i have silent reflux (or im debating if I might’ve been misdiagnosed atp) and I’m temporarily not able to sing and havent been able to since snow on my windowsill. But i will release new music as soon as i can sing again🫀


Lyrics:
Stood trying to remember what I look like in the mirror
What does real life really feel like?
I don’t remember what I’m supposed to feel

Am I dead?
Or am I in a dream?
Am I a ghost watching what my life would of been?

I can’t feel
Times not real
Life’s not real
I’m not real

Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
Nothing is real, ohh, ohh

(I don’t think I belong on this planet
This galaxy, this universe
I don’t think I belong at all)

What am I here for?
What is my purpose?
Or am I even here?
What can I trust?
I don’t know who really exists
I don’t remember who anybody is

Do I know them?
Can they see me?
Can they hear me?
Can they feel me?
Do they know me?
Do they know who I am?

I can’t feel
Times not real
Life’s not real
I’m not real

Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
I can’t feel, time’s not real
Life’s not real, no I’m not real

I’m lost
I don’t belong, no
I can’t do it, I don’t know who’s real I don’t know what’s real
Anymore, ha
(No more, no more)