Jeremy Brett - I´m so ashamed

I´m so sorry about the things I´ve done in the last weeks!
I´ve problems to talk about my feelings, especially in English. But I disbelieved that someone understand me, even though my English was perfect :-(!
I wasn´t myself, so I run away.
Now I´m back and I´ll try to change some things.
On my trip I thought always, that I was alone. But it wasn´t so, in my thoughts Jeremy was with me. And in the right moment he shaked me up!
Since then I´m so ashamed!
I´m back at home now and I´ve made this video, because I´m not able to speek.
I´ve missed all of your here so much, and I´m really happy to be back!
I´ll try to do my best now!