Joanna Sternberg plays "This Is Not Who I Want To Be" for SoS

“I don’t believe that suffering is a scale and you can measure your suffering against someone else’s. So I’m not trying to say ‘woe is me’ but I am a drug addict and I do have technical mental health issues. I wrote this song when I was going through withdrawal and I didn’t sleep for nine days and I was singing it to myself literally about what I was experiencing and the song has helped me not use those substances since I wrote it. I think it could help someone else to write a song about something that happened to them.”
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SoS is happy to share a take of the incredible song “This Is Not Who I Want To Be” from our visit to Joanna Sternberg’s home last year.
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We approached Sternberg after hearing their debut album “Then I Try Some More” which touches on many subjects like addiction, depression and working through feelings of hopelessness. Ultimately it is a triumphant LP, just as Joanna is themself.
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“Rain pouring down my head pounds from the sound
I'm stuck to the bed with brain zaps in my head
I can't fall asleep I cannot stay awake
I cry till I weep I shiver and I shake
I think of you I think of you
I think of you it's all that I can do
And lord knows I try I'm trying hard to change
I wish I knew why I always stay the same
This is not who I want to be
This is not who I want to be
I am slowly killing me
No, This is not who I want to be”
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📷: @charliegrosss