Okay | Original by Taylor McGee

i put on your favorite show
last night when i couldn’t sleep
i thought it’d mess me up
or give me something to feel
release the anger in me
but i didn’t feel a thing
no heartache or regret
can’t tell what’s happening
am i numb or just used to the pain
that i no longer get?

i drove around a while
with nowhere really to go
sat in my car half an hour
after i’d already been home
but home doesn’t feel the same
when i can’t feel at all
i don’t think im okay
watched a movie for hours
while my eyes just stared at the wall

it’s so easy to seem okay
from your side of the phone
ask how im doing babe
the smile at the end says
“i’m just fine with being alone”
but i hate myself today
i hate the way i breathe
no, it’s fine, im okay
if i say it enough
maybe then i’ll start to believe