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No, I didn’t make it onto The Voice, haha, and this video is from July 2024.
But I was selected among the top ten adults for the very first round of auditions.
The adventure awaits me elsewhere, and I have no regrets :)
I went for it at 27, afraid of being too old because of how others might look at me.
But there are no rules. It’s up to you to define your life and your own standards.
And yes, it’s hard… but please keep going. One day, it will pay off.
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A note to myself in ten years, written on Tuesday, January 20th at 12:40 a.m.:

This is for the future.
For the future me who will keep growing and growing until she reaches her goal.
I will try to love myself against all odds so that I don’t have any regrets.
This will be a very important memory: the video I sent for the very first preliminary auditions for The Voice. I was selected among the top ten adults (an immense victory after so many years of work), but I didn’t go any further. And that’s perfect.
Life had another plan for me, probably even bigger projects. Everything will be okay.
No matter what I do, I will suffer, so I might as well get used to it.
Music is so hard… I don’t even know if the word is strong enough to express how hard it is.
Sometimes it’s violent. And I still don’t realize how much more violent it’s going to get.

As I approach my 29th birthday in a few months… I have no regrets.
Of course, I have regrets: not having started earlier.
If I had listened to myself at 13 or 14, I wonder what would have happened.
I bought my first microphone at 20, in my student dorm during my gap year.
Best decision of my life! I was very lonely after COVID… two years of training locked away for 3 to 5 hours a day… abominable. But zero regrets for being relentless.

I don’t really know how to define myself anymore…
I still can’t fully see myself as an artist.
The preparation to even know if I would start was longer than for others.
I had immense doubts when I was 24.
I try not to compare myself to others, not to care at all, and to keep going regardless.
We’re approaching our thirties… people will get married, have children.
I have none of that. I try to remind myself that judgment will continue until my death.
Before, I was judged for my study choices, my life choices…
Now it’s marriage and children. Tomorrow it will be their education, and so on.
I want to be 100% myself and take even bigger risks.
I also want to finally have the means to perform, a killer body, and no more money problems.
I want to finally be surrounded only by the best.

The past two years have been horrible: a violent breakup, depression, losing my work, failing my business goals, financial insecurity, social isolation, several days in a charity shelter, returning to live with family.
In short, it’s been tough, but I still don’t want all that to win.
I want to win… really win.
I want to win and be proud of myself every morning when I look in the mirror.

For several months now, I’ve been resting, reading, sleeping.
The adventure continues; 2026 will be great.

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Honestly I'm not proud of that performance, but I don't care :) I'm happy to try and improve hihi!!!