🍃WELLNESS FIRST ⁄⁄ CatCreature

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🍊 i n t h i s v l o g
refer to outfits worn in this vlog in this weekly lookbook:
   • 🌤OOTW- Last Sunny Days Before Autumn ...  
09:10 red lip color- https://go.magik.ly/ml/qxun/
green sweater- thrifted (ft. in this lookbook-    • 🌿First Week of School Outfits \\ CatC...  )
most of what i wear is either many years old, or thrifted!
stretching video i did-    • Total Body Yoga | Deep Stretch | Yoga...  
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-Final Cut Pro x edited by me
-Canon G7x Mark II https://amzn.to/2EKpKM0
#destress #wellness

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hello there,

it's nice to be back, and chatting with you for a little while. at least on my end- i've been consciously withdrawing myself from social media, filming, and even social aspects of my life, too. i guess for the longest time i felt that it was normal to be under a constant, heavy, load with no breaks but only the expectation of a relentless grind. despite the fruits of my successes and everything those efforts achieved, i was left tired and unable to see things around me for what they are.
I've been genuinely happy these days, and embracing my life. that doesn't mean that i am literally HAPPY every second of everyday, that i am stress free, fear free, worry free- but rather, i fully embrace the existence of problems and challenges and the shitty moments and the shitty feelings that i encounter. it's supposed to be there, it's part of this experience. but i've made it of the upmost importance to not lose myself and my grounding through it all-
that no matter what life throws at me, the unpredictable tragedies, the daunting deadlines, the scary unknown- i must know that i have myself, that i exist on this earth, that i am completely and utterly temporary here (and so are you).
and while i AM here, i want to have LIVED ! i want to be wrapped up in my sheets, thankful at the day's end for warmth and youth and my current health,
for the nice food i learned to cook for myself, the beautiful things i learned to create through art and the beautiful people i met and surrounded myself with.
and even when i feel incapable of talking to other people, & just need the calm & solace of isolation, it is when i feel safe and content. when i feel very much alive in this breathing mass of a body, to look back at myself in the mirror, staring at a young face that will be very weathered with age someday-
and just... be living.
and im not even sure what all this means. but i'm thankful for the steps i've taken to recognize more of these thoughts and goals, and to express them, and to do what i WANT to do, what i enjoy doing- which includes my being here today.
i've always been a planner, and im about details- planning things down to a tee so i feel secure. but it's like... for the first time in my life, i am open to..
unknown, to change, to ambiguity. i'm learning to trust my instincts more.
and... i'm not sure about everything anymore. i realize that even when you think you are sure of everything, and have things figured out- you are merely making a quick decision that may either be exactly what you need/should do, or premature and closing you off to other opportunities.
my goals and aspirations moving forward with you here on youtube is just to...
enjoy our time together.
however long that may be.

All my love,
Annabelle