A Course in Miracles - Applied: We're Going Toward Love, Not Wanting to Arrive.

In this segment, we are discussing the juxtaposition of our wish to go home and, at the same time, not arrive there.

III. Light in the Dream
1. You who have spent your life in bringing truth to illusion, reality to fantasy, have walked the way of dreams. ²For you have gone from waking to sleeping, and on and on to a yet deeper sleep. ³Each dream has led to other dreams, and every fantasy that seemed to bring a light into the darkness but made the darkness deeper. ⁴Your goal was darkness, in which no ray of light could enter. ⁵And you sought a blackness so complete that you could hide from truth forever, in complete insanity. ⁶What you forgot was simply that God cannot destroy Himself. ⁷The light is in you. ⁸Darkness can cover it, but cannot put it out.
2. As the light comes nearer you will rush to darkness, shrinking from the truth, sometimes retreating to the lesser forms of fear, and sometimes to stark terror. ²But you will advance, because your goal is the advance from fear to truth. ³The goal you accepted is the goal of knowledge, for which you signified your willingness. ⁴Fear seems to live in darkness, and when you are afraid you have stepped back. ⁵Let us then join quickly in an instant of light, and it will be enough to remind you that your goal is light.
3. Truth has rushed to meet you since you called upon it. ²If you knew Who walks beside you on the way that you have chosen, fear would be impossible. ³You do not know because the journey into darkness has been long and cruel, and you have gone deep into it. ⁴A little flicker of your eyelids, closed so long, has not yet been sufficient to give you confidence in yourself, so long despised. ⁵You go toward love still hating it, and terribly afraid of its judgment upon you. ⁶And you do not realize that you are not afraid of love, but only of what you have made of it. ⁷You are advancing to love’s meaning, and away from all illusions in which you have surrounded it. ⁸When you retreat to the illusion your fear increases, for there is little doubt that what you think it means is fearful. ⁹Yet what is that to us who travel surely and very swiftly away from fear?
(ACIM, T-18.III.1:1–3:9)

Your learning goal has been not to learn, and this cannot lead to successful learning. (ACIM, T-12.V.6:3)

I was not “punished” because you were bad. (ACIM, T-3.I.2:10)

Your learning goal has been not to learn, and this cannot lead to successful learning. (ACIM, T-12.V.6:3)