OCD | HAUNTED BABYLON

Tryna figure out if it’s genetic or aesthetic
But I meant it when I said it it’s prophetic I’m pathetic
My self esteem is shattered by the fucking broken brain I got
Don’t call the cops I mean I’m lost inside a thought I’ll never stop
Obsessive compulsive disorders in me
It’s been here since the start so I guess it’s an OG
Im obsessive and compulsive as this one can be
But I swear to fucking god it ain’t insanity
Mind games I’m depraved how the fuck I make it stop?
Blame god not a phase wish I knew the fucking cause
Never take a pause lost in a holocaust
Feeling like my mind is gassing up these motherfucking evil thoughts
Every single day it’s just intrusive and belligerent
Deliberate illiterate my brain is working different
Uninvited wicked shit my mind is inconsiderate
My sanity is dwindling I swear I’ve only got a bit
This ailment is more than what you see in entertainment
It’s more than when you give a fuck about your shit’s arrangement
It’s more like constant worries that you’re sick and a derangement
Seeking reassurance craving total ascertainment
OCD is more than when you want your shit straight and it’s more than being scared that you’ll be there fucking late
Its more like having sickened thoughts of you committing hate
With disgrace on ya face cuz ya brain was just raped
If I get a bad thought then I count to 23
Irrational compulsion just to give me some relief cuz I’m an
An animal, revulsion bitch I mean it I’m a freak
Won’t retreat, no technique, OCD it’s unique
Conspiring against me OCD is what it be
Combined with minds that lie to me
And what you get? Anxiety
Even if my life is flowing and I’m on a winning streak
My mind will try and stop it all suggests a fucking killing spree
Tryna figure out if it’s genetic or aesthetic
But I meant it when I said it it’s prophetic I’m pathetic
My self esteem is shattered by the fucking broken brain I got
Don’t call the cops I mean I’m lost inside a thought I’ll never stop
Obsessive compulsive disorders in me
It’s been here since the start so I guess it’s an OG
Im obsessive and compulsive as this one can be
But I swear to fucking god it ain’t insanity
“What if” thoughts set it off playing on my empathy
My brain it treats the possible with certain probability
I read the Bible I believe the devil gave me this disease
Guilty habits for relief emboldened accidentally

written and performed by Hunter Avallone