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Addendum: I've actually been writing since the beginning of 2011 as I've always scripted my videos on this channel.
The first story I ever wrote was thinly veiled fiction. In 2010 I had a full mental and emotional breakdown. The following year I must have written down the events as best I could remember in rough form. I can't remember if I ever meant to publish it originally. Eventually I read the thing aloud on here in 2013 (seeing this video recently as I was going over some stuff brought up some uncomfortable recollections). It wasn't until two years later that I put together the finished form of this 'tale' and put it out there with a bunch of other stories in my first self-published work called Fast & Fulsome Tales. I have this uneasy feeling that I may have blotted out the memory of writing the original to some degree as it would have been a painful process (recalling all of the horrible shit that happened). I did touch on the events of 2010 in my memoir (2023) though not to the extent I did in the 'short story'.
Anyway, just thought I'd put this out there.