recorded my thoughts before a big trip (+ prologue of wack clips)

What is this short prologue of some random clips followed by a long confusing ramble? Who cares? Nobody, but I'm doing this to get more out of my comfort zone.
I will be posing a few videos again, because I want to document this time in my life. At the start of August I went to visit some friends. It was the last time I could visit them while they work summer jobs at a voluntary "boardingschool" that we all went to recently. Then I edited together a long-winded monologue so as to capture my state of mind in this time before I leave my home for Japan - for the record so I can compare myself to who I will be when I return home after four months in a different 'world'. Posting this publicly is nerve-wrecking, but not as scary as it was five years ago (when I made stupid youtube videos for fun).

Thanks for watching! Peace and love x