skele & heylog - it's not getting easier (lyrics)

i was bored to death, so i decided to learn how to make lyric videos

skele
~ https://open.spotify.com/artist/423Kh...
~   / lilskeleskrrt  
~   / ripskele  
~   / lilskele  

heylog
~ https://open.spotify.com/artist/5Jf6p...
~   / heylog  
~   / byelog  
~   / heylog  

produced by caves & irby
~ caves:   / imcaves  
~ irby:   / irby314  

anime
~ silent voice

lyrics:
[skele]
you made me feel nauseous
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier
i'll lie and say it is
i gave up on getting better
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found
would it surprise you
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice
that i regret
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye

i wish i did better
thinking all the time
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number
floating in my phone
i wish i did better
thinking all the time
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine
girl you're pretty funny
tell another lie