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composer/lyricist: Rudy Reyga
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published by: Rudy Reyga
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This song tells the story of an addict who is trying to quit taking drugs.
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Reminder:
"Don't take drugs", take care of your health, your future lies in your own hands. Don't ruin yourself just for a moment's happiness.
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Lyrics:
Verse 1
I wake up with your name in my veins,
A quiet curse I never learned to hate.
You hold me like a lover when I’m weak,
Then disappear and leave me incomplete.

My hands still shake when I say I’m done,
My body prays but my blood still runs
Back to you—every time I fall,
You catch me just to watch me crawl.

Pre-Chorus
You promise peace, you promise rest,
But you hollow out my chest.
If this is love, then let it break—
I’d rather hurt than stay this way.

Chorus
I’m in love with the thing that’s killing me,
A beautiful lie wrapped around my teeth.
I trade my breath just to feel relief,
Then drown in the aftermath quietly.
If I have to bleed to finally breathe,
I’ll carve your name out of me.
I won’t worship what I can’t survive—
I choose the pain of being alive.

Verse 2
The night gets loud when I’m alone,
Your voice sounds just like home.
You tell me I’m nothing without you here,
That I’m safer numb than facing fear.

But I’ve seen the cost in hollow eyes,
In goodbye notes I won’t survive.
I don’t want to be another ghost
Still begging for you from below.

Pre-Chorus 2
I’ve kissed the edge, I know the taste,
It’s cold and sweet and full of waste.
If this is all you’ll ever give,
Then I’ll learn how to live without it.

Chorus
I’m in love with the thing that’s killing me,
A beautiful lie wrapped around my teeth.
I trade my breath just to feel relief,
Then drown in the aftermath quietly.
If I have to bleed to finally breathe,
I’ll carve your name out of me.
I won’t worship what I can’t survive—
I choose the pain of being alive.

Bridge (Cinematic / Drop)
Strip me bare—
Every craving, every prayer.
I don’t need heaven if it’s built on veins,
I don’t need peace if it feels like chains.

I am not your altar,
I am not your home.
I am not the body
You get to own.

Final Chorus (Lifted, Massive)
I was drowning just to feel something real,
Now I’m breaking just enough to heal.
I won’t bow to the night anymore,
I’ve bled enough on your cold floor.
If freedom scars, let it mark my skin,
I’ll wear the proof that I chose to live.
You don’t define the war I survive—
I choose the pain of being alive.

Outro (Soft, Empty)
I still hear you when I close my eyes…
But I don’t answer this time.

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