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Ma’ale Gilboa Yeshiva.
I’m sitting in my studio — a room the size of a small classroom — next to my piano.
Thoughts rise up and wash over me.
I want to leave. I feel trapped.
But I’m afraid.
I want to stay.
Not for the people. Not for the place.
For me. So I don’t leave this part of my soul behind.

I decide to walk away from religion — and tear my soul in two:
The part that leaves, and the part that stays behind.

But it’s not just about religion.
I want to leave behind my body image issues, my bad habits.
I want to let it all go.

But the side of me I want to abandon… speaks to me.
In the image of a lover, begging me not to go.
These two sides of me have never walked apart.
The one that longs to break free is still pulled back by the part that’s scared to be left behind.

In the C-part of the song, I face myself in the mirror — body and soul together — and ask:
How is it that I can’t escape… myself?

The final chorus is the soul’s last goodbye to the body.
How can I leave?
But I do.

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🎵 Song Credits –
Written, composed, produced, mixed & mastered by: Barak Kalach
Artwork drawn by: Barak Kalach (created during the writing of the song in 2020)

There’s a lot of places
I don’t know
Paths, roads
I’ll never walk
Sliding doors
At every choice that I will make
I may never
Feel this love
Again

Moving forward
Is the rule
So you might think
That I’m a fool
When I don’t listen
And I’m trying to hold back
Just to maybe
Feel this love
Again

Just to maybe
Feel this love
Again

So how can you, without delay, decide to live
Before the ink dries on my heart
I’m too afraid to lose you, so I am gonna stay
Behind. Behind.
So how can you just right away decide to live
Wiping out our memories
I can’t keep moving on, so I am gonna stay
For you. For me.

They say that comfort
Is a lie
But between us
I’d rather die
Than go outside and
Take a part of the machine
Cause then I’ll never
Feel my love
Again

Cause then I’ll never
Feel my love
Again

So how can you, without delay, decide to live
Before the ink dries on my heart
I’m too afraid to lose you, so I am gonna stay
Behind. Behind.
So how can you just right away decide to live
Wiping out our memories
I can’t keep moving on, so I am gonna stay
For you. For me.

Mirror, mirror on the wall
Say, can I let me free at all
Or will I stay a living shadow of myself

For there’s a part of me that left
And I don’t know what’s right or left
Wish I could do the same and leave

So how could I, without delay, decide to live
Before the ink dries on my heart
I’m too afraid to lose me, so I am gonna stay
For me. For I.
So how can I just right away decide to live
Wiping out my memories
I can’t keep moving on, so I am gonna stay
Behind. Behind.
Behind.