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I conquered the Green Eyed Monster yesterday by confessing my feelings to my family. I was plagued with this feeling for weeks with symptoms of not feeling well, sabotaging by avoiding my family and Tita, and Physical Symptoms were:

Headache

Insomnia

Panic attacks

Throwing up

Story:

After mentioning I hide my jealousy for too long from my teen years, I had a lot of regret of my past jealousy and anger issues and then I was conquered by the Green Eyed Monster himself. So, what did I do, I hide my feelings. I was too embarrassed to admit my feelings to my family. I fear that I might end up like I did like I did like on 8th Grade. But everytime my mom ask me if I'm okay, I say I'm fine. But I'm not okay. That's how I hide my emotions, that's one way. Another way, is to act normal. But the jealousy panic attack is too hard to ignore. I was just worried that I might sabotaged my family or other people’s relationship like I did with my severe anger issues. On where I exploded and cause damage on one of my sister's friends:    • Story Time with Monster Mary Episode 1 The...  . But it seems I'm causing damage anyway by being cold and distant. But it looks like I was already sabotaging by avoiding my family and Tita. So, whenever I feel jealous, I get a feeling in my stomach that makes me stay in my room, it causes physical symptoms of headache, dizziness, stomachache, Panic attacks. Then it made me sabotage people in my dreams. There were times I exploded with jealousy online on Facebook Messenger because of my family not paying attention to Goldie enough and all they care was about Tita, the bird. Which I feel guilty about.