WIDDUP / GORPLE RES / FAMILY WALK …Fri 30th Aug 2024 😍

Widdop walk..Gorple Res and Rocks..annoying flies..bones of a sheep…a cute newt…tiny frogs…stunning views..beautiful scents of Heather…sheepish sheep…beautiful kind-hearted caring children… helpful husband carrying the pic nic……murderous grouse shooting hut and pods 👿😤😫….but thankful to have all got out …despite severe hormones ruining mine and my precious girls minds at times, struggling with thoughts and stress ..the flies causing my girl the stress and the travelling in a vehicle to name two 💔🤯😭😫 heartbreaking to endure and to watch helplessly your own child endure them 🤯😭😫💔

I filmed the best bits 🌈✝️🕊️😇😘🥰😍 hid the rest x x x

A LOVELESS MARRIAGE…

Danny & I are married on paper ..not in deed…we’re not in a relationship….just not divorced…but are stuck in the same house ..cos Severe Hormones don’t allow me to manage since the Asperger’s combined with it, he can get us by, and that’s how we struggle on 💔 I did struggle to raise 3 sons alone for 20yrs before we met but have declined since we got married in 2007,to the point I can’t manage alone anymore or raise children 💔
The combination of the 3 mental health disabilities distance us 💔
The three of us wear ladycare magnets ..which reduces the severity of the mental health disabilities from outward to inward, on the whole. Which is better for others, but hell for the sufferer.
Danny’s isn’t as severe as mine and my girls, as long as he has the magnet on, but his adds to the severity of ours! 💔
Being only two years into this, our daughter still explodes on her unwell days of S.H.I.T..Severe Hormonal Incapacitating Turmoil ..but mainly at the Asperger’s actions in her Dad 💔
Though the flies on this walk and the travelling in the car also caused high anxiety stress in her 💔As she also has travelling struggles in vehicles 💔 Athens in Oct 2023 was our last hol abroad and her struggles were through the roof ..which upset me and made mine through the roof, whilst Danny just kept away from the situation the entire journey over, which caused more anxiety in us 💔
Before S.H.I.T we all went to Zante and our girl didn’t struggle with vehicle anxiety then so it was a wonderful flight and holiday 🌈✝️🕊️😇😘🥰😍 our last wonderful one abroad.
Which happened to be the last wonderful holiday abroad I had as a single parent with my first 3 sons, at the exact same place AND…THE EXACT SAME ROOM! 😃 🌈✝️🕊️😇😘🥰😍 room 209 Kalamaki Beach Hotel, Kalamaki, Zakinthos (Zante) x x x
S.H.I.T began for me aged 13 and for my girl right on her 10th birthday 💔 She’s 12 now and has had two yrs of this S.H.I.T struggle of a life 💔Asperger’s ways antagonises it 💔
Thankfully her brother, who lives at hime aged 16, is a calming aspect and they are best friends 🌈✝️🕊️😇😘🥰😍 they are unschooled ..hence why they are best friends ..schools tend to split sibling closeness up and transfer it to class mates or others their own age sadly 💔on the whole ..not always 🌈✝️🕊️😇😘🥰😍

I didn’t know descriptions allowed this many words!

I do tend to waffle a lot and I’m an extremely open person.
Hope this helps others somehow who maybe in a similar struggle.

Love Julie 🌈✝️🕊️😇😘🥰😍 x x x