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My first and only batch of Saguaro seedlings turned 4 years old in late June 2025. I feel like they had a good start for the first two years and then their growth rate slowed down significantly in the last two years. I have my suspicions on the reasons for the slow growth which we discuss in the video.

My Saguaro Seedling update playlist:    • Saguaro Seedling Updates  

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It has been exactly 28 days since Cookie passed away as I write this video description on July 29, 2025. It feels almost impossible to adjust to life without her. I just miss her so much all the time. I often still can't believe that she's gone. One day she's here, my vibrant, sweet girl. And a short while later, she's gone. Including the short clips of her in the video dedicated to her memory continues to be very difficult. Seeing her feels so familiar, a glimpse back into the old life, and then realizing that she's gone all over again makes my heart sink every time. But it also feels wrong to not include her in the videos and that part wins over the pain.

I find comfort in the many of you who know exactly how this feels. The instinct is to want to run away from the grief, but there is no running away. Tanya's CKD site has a very well written page on coping with loss: https://felinecrf.org/coping_with_you.... She captures the terrible rollercoaster of grief so well. In her writing there is also hope. She writes: "Grief is a rollercoaster and once you have boarded the ride, you cannot get off, even though you will wish you could. Keep hanging on. The ride does end eventually. Loss will change you forever, though not always in bad ways."