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Today it's exactly one year since Lexa is gone. To be honest I feel like it was a month ago. I still remember the day so well. In the morning I missed my bus so I got back home and while waiting I thought I might go to tumblr. There I saw a post with first sentence "honestly I think that Lexa as a character deserved better death" And I still remember how I felt in that moment. I couldn't believe it yet I felt how something in me broke. The whole day I was feeling horrible and it was one of the worst days of my life. I was trying to survive day at school without crying. When I got home I told everyone to not interupt me and went to watch the episode. I was already crying when it started then everytime Lexa was there I was just like a little baby. Then the kiss happened. I didn't know about that and it made me cry even more. I couldn't see or breathe. I've never cried this much in my life at least from what I remember. Then when THAT scene happened I was going through the worst moments of my life. I had to stop the episode few times just to calm down a little bit. My heart got broken that day and since then it wasn't fixed and it never will be. After the episode I just went to sit down on my bed and cried even more. Overall I spend about 3 hours of crying. Then I somehow fell asleep until my mom woke me up when she came to my room to tell me good night. I slept only about 2 hours but it was enough to spend the whole night making a video. I made the Knocking on heaven's door one and half of the My immortal one. I finished that the other day. While making those videos I kept on crying. I seriously never cried so much in my llife. I still can't hear those 2 songs because it hurts me so much. I also remember watching all those videos that people made and I still kept on crying my eyes out. On Saturday I basically cried the whole day too, same on Sunday. On Monday it got little better as I had to go to school where I wasn't thinking about it that much. After all I think the first day I didn't cry at all was Wednesday. I was still grieving though and I still am. I will probably never be over what happened.
Since that episode lot of things happen. In the fandom and in my life too. In that time I had no idea that I am going to make so many friends in the fandom, that thanks to clexa videos I will reach 2k subscribers or that I will meet Alycia. Clexa also made me realize my sexuality. I am still not sure but I moved on from the straight faze. I came out to all my friends and I am comfortable with who I am. That's all thanks to Clexa. This fandom feels like home and I can't be more proud to be a part of it. Together we menaged so many things. From all the trending, winning polls or articles to billboards, ClexaCon and more. I've never seen such a powerful fandom. I might be also part of SPN family or the Phandom that have huge numbers but they never menaged to do what we did in a year. Thank you for everything ClexaKru ♥

In peace may you leave this shore
in love may you find the next
safe passage on your travels
until our final journey on the ground
MAY WE MEET AGAIN

Lexa means so much to me. She is a legend that van't be forgotten and she will always have a special place in my heart. I'm incredibly grateful for being able to know her story even though it also caused me so much pain. Thanks to her my life changed a lot and I have some great memories that I will always keep close. Big thank you goes to Alycia for portraying Lexa. She gave life to our Heda and I will always be grateful for that. There is no one else who could portray her better.

RESHOP HEDA
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Character: Commander Lexa
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