Ever been scared to gain weight in recovery? Yeah me too! But alas, it has to be done, at least at this point on my journey, so let’s talk about how I’m coping with it, and how we can navigate crossing arbitrary numerical milestones on the scale.
With an ED, even the thought of gaining weight can be paralyzingly terrifying, making us want to run away and back to the ED, because at least it provides temporary relief of anxiety and discomfort.
But we also know, just how short-lasting that disordered mental rush/relief is, which naturally leaves us feeling the need continue engaging in further behaviors, just to maintain status quo. That is NOT truly life.
So while it may be an option to run back to your ED, it’s absolutely the most stupid option, and an option that will result in a life of misery, likely inevitably cut short by death due to complications of an ED. It’s sobering, but true.
In other words: when you’re overwhelmed by the physical and emotional turmoil you’re feeling as you navigate a changing body and changing weight, you have to learn to just sit with that discomfort, anxiety, panic, anger, and all other emotions and sensations come up.
Remind yourself: even the hardest, most difficult emotions WILL eventually pass, but the only way to get to a place where it’s easier to sit with them and eventually profess them and move on, is to do that exact thing, especially when we don’t feel like it and our brain is screaming at us.
Conversely, if you turn to your ED behaviors to handle negative emotions instead of sitting with them, you’re into strengthening the neural pathways your ED has formed in your brain over time, and each time you run back to your ED, you’re delaying the inevitable aspects of recovery (and recovery IS worth it, and YOU deserve to live a life where you can feel, experience, and express all emotions fully), and therefore making the journey longer, and more difficult, for your body and mind.
EDs are mental disorders, but we have to address the physical issues that have arisen as a result of life in disorder, and often, that requires weight restoration (brain restoration) until your brain and body are adequately fueled to effectively do the mental work and have it stick.
So: weight gain is not bad. It’s just restoring life, joy, weight, brain power, and strength I never should have lost in the first place. It does not mean I’m weak or a failure, nor does it mean those things for you–the very fact that you’re still alive and fighting back is a living, breathing testament to your strength, to God’s strength and healing power, and a hope they springs eternal.
Bec💕
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